On the days that get really hard, for whatever reason, there are a few songs that I have found cure almost any sour mood. Today, it is Love Feels Like by DC Talk. If you not familiar, let me suggest you check it out. Crank it loud and just let the words sink in! When you apply it to something greater than ourselves, in my case fighting like a mother to defend two little kids, it can help you recharge and remember we really are being carried during these tough times.
A couple of years ago, I ran through many states including the mountains of Colorado. It was a very peaceful time and I connected to myself and to God on a level I never would have imagined was possible, I think sometimes the run down of daily tasks can rob us of the beauty that exists all around us and within us. So while we struggle, we need to replenish ourselves, replenish the Faith, replenish the Hope, and replenish the Love. Through my travels I realized I really did like other people, something as an introvert I never found in myself before. What I found was how thirsty other people really are. I take for granted my relationship with God and how easily attractive that relationship is to other people. Like moths to a light. I miss the fellowship that my travels brought to my life. Living up here in almost Canada has brought different experiences but I value the koinonia of others. This fellowship is the basis for my blogs. I have so many things troubling me but I don’t to make it about the hardship, I want to make this about the Journey to find strength and courage to continue and to OVERCOME. A few weeks ago, I have to admit all seemed lost and life didn’t seem worth much. But I realize that all the bad things that others have brought to my life, I would only be serving them by allowing them to conquer me. A few years ago, someone in need told me that I had a gift of love that was so much more and deeper than he had ever realized was possible. I believe that when the devil is most threatened, at that moment in which we are the most overpowering of him, that that is when he unleashes the most suffering. I have this degree of pain right now greater than any other pain I have ever had and I have been tempted to curse God and many times I have cried out like Jesus “Eli ELi lama sabachthani?” Psalms 22:2. Translated: “My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?” But in helping a friend who was just diagnosed with cancer, I offered him the following verse: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7. This, I have taken to heart and my prayer is now that God grants me peace only he can offer and that he guards my heart and my mind so that I can fight the war that he has placed before me. Knowing that I also have laid my burden down before Christ as this is his fight and I am nothing more than Daniel with my rock and my sling against this giant.
God please guard our hearts and our minds that we may continue to fight by your grace with the strength only you can provide.