I have the song Greater by MercyMe running through my head today. If you aren’t familiar check it out as it’s a must have in your playlist.
I have been struggling to grasp why people I have been good to would suddenly turn their back or worse, seek to hurt me. It doesn’t seem right when we as Christians are taught to be forgiving and turn the other cheek and as we do, those who we have been merciful to seek to destroy us or rejoice in our suffering. I am reminded of verse John 4:4 as I seek to understand. The world is led astray and this includes many people who claimed to fear God and who claim to be Christians. How we treat those in their darkest hours, whether we chose to come to their rescue or whether we chose to crucify them, reveals to the world if God is within us or not.
I have loved people and I have been gracious to them. I am not saying I have been perfect but in their time of need I was gracious and merciful, even at my own expense. I am being repaid with anger and resentment, with vengeance.
I experience my first ever shut out following my breast cancer diagnosis. This is someone who I wasn’t close to because of circumstances but someone I have gone out of my way for with purpose to show her love and acceptance. She has stated “doesn’t want to get involved” and has blocked me on Facebook. Needing other people is new to me and after spending some good sessions with members of my church being politely informed that other people seek to offer help as their way of being a blessing and that accepting this kindness is an act of kindness in itself as to allow them to be a blessing, so I am learning to be a gracious receiver. But I can’t explain how painful this rejection is in light of my illness. I guess I want to show this person how quickly life can leave us and that we need to grab onto each other and let the judgements and the pride go because when it comes down to it, we aren’t guaranteed time to make amends and to share with each other how much they mean to us. Having not cared for Facebook much in the past, I am only left with this one thought – why doesn’t this person care that blocking me would make me feel rejected at a time in my life when my whole world seems to be falling apart? Does she not know that she was meant to be the blessing by being the hands and feet of Christ in this world by even the most innocent of means, by being a friend to someone in need?
When I think about the verse above, I remember that God does great works through me and we must seek to do His work in this world. When Jesus walked the earth, He did great things by God doing great things through Him. Everything we do and say, we must be the blessing for others and allow Christ to work through us. When we lose our willingness to allow Christ to work through us, then the world is a very dark and desperate place.