Sometime in life, we face difficult situations and difficult people that can feel like we have a vast army attacking us. While most of us will never know what it is like to actually encounter a threat of attack from a vast army, our personal battles cause us to fear, to prepare, to strategize, and to fight just the same. Many times we make what we believe to be the best plan possible, a plan that is foolproof, only to have our plan fail and we lose the battle. Many times we don’t even know where to start. Despair and fear take over and all we can do is collapse. I’m reminded of the time on the final day of the three day trial for custody of my children. I was exhausted. I had endured two long days. I had planned and strategized and I had been prepared and yet my mind was blank and I didn’t have the strength to continue. I lay face down on the floor and I prayed. That was all I could do. Imagine the horror as my greatest supporter and honorary co-counsel walked into the Law library where we were preparing moments before court and found me behind the table laying face down on the floor. Truly he had to believe at that point all was lost.
In the moment Jehoshaphat learned of the approaching army, he did not plan with his own army. He prays and fasts. He stood before an entire assembly and prays to God saying “…We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” I love this! Jehoshaphat had no shame in admitting he did not know what to do. Can you imagine some in the assembly panicking as they realize their great leader Jehoshaphat “doesn’t know what to do”? Imagine if we ever had a moment where our greatest leaders of the World would gather together and proclaim the honest truth “Lord, we don’t know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” What kind of peace this would bring. Imagine the strength that it takes to step back and wait for a higher wisdom to give you direction. So many of us want to be captains of our ship and call all the shots and foolishly we run aground time and time again. We find the response from God in verse 15 “Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s”.
At this time in my crisis, the story of Jehoshaphat is a breathe of fresh air. Finally, I have found something encouraging me to do the only thing I have the energy to do at this moment, to retreat to my stronghold, rest, and wait on God. In our support groups, it is most likely we all have the highly aggressive offense player. The one who tries to light a fire under us and make us fight to the death. While I will be the first to tell you, sometimes this is what is needed. But at the point I am at, having lost every heavy handed battle I have tried, it is the need for a new strategy that is calling.
In the midst of my adversity, I don’t know what to do and my eyes are upon you, Lord. In my deepest time of need, Lord, I will wait on you.