Back to my old ways…
I have found myself back in the state of mind that my deliverance from my current calamities will come by my power. “How can I fight for my kids if I’m fighting for my life?” For the next four months I will be receiving chemo and then 5 weeks of radiation. And then reconstruction surgeries. I’m a low maintenance woman by choice whose life has now become full of maintenance. “My children are gone. I won’t have the time or health to fight this battle much longer.” Wow, do I have a lot of faith in my abilities to move this mountain alone. Today, I need to realign my faith. The deliverance of my children and of my health will not come from me! This mountain will be moved by God! Maybe through me, maybe through my lawyer, maybe through the legislature, law enforcement, Attorney Generals, and FBI I have been in contact with, maybe through my medical team, maybe through you who are reading this, maybe by God alone!
We are reminded by Act 2:22 that Jesus did great miracles but not by his own power. God worked through Jesus. If the son of God couldn’t pull these miracles without God while he walked this earth, who am I to think that I can?
I’m headed for chemo, say a prayer for all those today who are suffering and fighting!